Coast One

I knew things would develop between Chris and Johnny. “Just you watch…by the month’s end, you’ll be together”. I kinda had a feeling it would happen.

Which makes me question Chris in general. I mean, now I don’t know what to think about him. But that’s a long way off, and probably another post. Let’s wait until I can recover from being stressed about him, and the other Chris, and the entire drama that’s now making me sick from El Paso.

Yes, the drama from El Paso is creeping up on me here in San Francisco. I, honestly, have thought about cutting all ties with everyone in El Paso. The only thing keeping me from doing that is knowning that people like Jacob and Kara still care for me and really haven’t done anything to deserve me doing something like that. I’d be a jackass to do something like that to them. Still, Kara is tied in with Oscar, and Jacob is tied in with both of the guys named Chris, so it’s a no-win situation right now.

At this moment, I need time away from El Paso. I need for everyone involved in that city not to call for a while, not to leave me a message on MySpace or wherever…just let me start anew here in California. If this means I don’t write to them or call for a week, or a month, or ever again…so be it.

You can probably tell by now, I’m not feeling well. I’ve got that awful feeling in the pit of my stomach like I want to vomit. This usually happens right before a spell of jealousy sets in. It always happens this way.

I bought two new albums today. They’re both compilations of techno tracks. I’m enjoying them very much…so much so that I made a car tape for when I’m driving, when I get my licence. Now, if I end up getting a car with a CD player instead of a tape deck, I’ll have just wasted an hour of my life I’ll never get back.

Buying two new albums today means shopping, and shopping means walking. I walked practically everywhere today…the Outlets, Wal-Mart…I even stopped by Staples for a few. I nearly bought a USB Bluetooth thing that’ll let me transfer ringtones from my laptop to my cell phone, but thought against it. I just couldn’t bring myself to spend $49 on a piece of metal. That’ll probably change when I tire of downloading polyphonic tones off of VoiceStream’s WAP service. Then, I’ll go into Staples and buy the USB thing so I can have real ringtones [the Hi-Fi kind] transferred to my phone.

Another thing keeping me from doing this is the long-time complaint I’ve held about obnoxious ringtones on phones. I believe any kind of phone should ring. Yes, you can have different styles of rings, but when your phone starts playing music and beats and things that sound like they belong in a game of Tetris, that’s when I draw the line.

Today was also spent watching concerts on DVD [when are my days not filled with at least one concert?]. I finally managed to watch “The Dance” and “Live In Boston” by Fleetwood Mac all the way through. Three hours of Fleetwood Mac was amazing. I sat through “Madrigals EP” as well, though that was only half an hour.

Finally got around to taking pictures of the Outlets today for a later post.